Foods for thought.

 -Yep, that's me right there. I had a dream about him having a son to another girl which broke my heart (in my dreams of course). I don't really care about him that much now. Idgaf anymore. As long as he keeps himself single. heehee..

-I used to have long term plans before one of my close friends died. Now all I think about is today and what I can do for tomorrow. And thing is, I'm not even quite sure if there will be tomorrow either.

-Immunity.

-uhhhhm ,excatly! LoL

-If I only have the guts, I'd probably say this to 3 people. 

- This one. Is. LEGIT. Imma stuck this piece down on people's throat.

- This one slapped me in the face. I always easily get attached on something/someone. Which only proves that I am that ignorant. :(

-For my emo friendS (emphasis on the plurality of the word friend), your argument is INVALID. 

-good night. ♥♥♥

Soooooo~

I'm going to share a little bit of what happened to me this day. There's this Gage Lane on facebook who invited me to like a fan page called "What Happened in Vegas". I thought another typhoon jerked its mighty ass into another place. When I got to the page, well, it's a band!

And I checked one of their songs..

"heeeey, this isn't so bad!"


then I posted on their wall thanking Gage for inviting me to the page.. and guess what? they like it!!



and then later on the admin commented and said HE'S THE BAND GUITARIST!!!

trying to keep myself calm, I told them I'm already downloading their songs..they liked my comment and responded!! They gave me a link of their album so I can download them right away.


and so I thanked them calmly as I could.. I didn't expect any response at all since I'm just some girl who is a fan. But then again, they liked my comment and responded a smiley,  A SMILEY!!!!! of all 30K fans out there who posted on their wall and giving responses to them, they still manage...to spare some time... giving.. me.. a.. SMILEY!!!!!




Yes I know they all responded to almost all posts their fans gave. teehee.. But it is only I that has communicated them for like 3 times! Here's the screen shot by the way, in case you thought lying. :)

And this is the fan page in case you thought I'm lying, again. :D

Oh how ignorant I am. One of the best day of my life~!!!!  *le sleep*

PARDON ME LANGUAGE, just thought this is cute and hilarious at the same time. :D

THEN RAISE THE FUCK OUT OF OUR KIDS!

AND GIVE YOU ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU’D EVER FUCKING NEED.

AND PAY THE HELL OUT OF THAT FUCKING MORTGAGE.

AND THEN WHEN THE GUTTERS ARE CLOGGED I’LL GET UP THAT FUCKING LADDER AND CLEAN THAT SHIT UP WHILE YOU STAND BY THE KITCHEN WINDOW COMICALLY JUDGING MY WORK.

AND THEN WE CAN VACUUM THE FUCK OUT OF OUR CARPET SO HARD THAT WE’LL HAVE TO GET A NEW ONE.

WE’LL WASH OUR CLOTHES SO GODDAMN FUCKING HARD. FORGET NO RINSE, WE’LL USE HIGH FUCKING SPEED.

BUY A FUCKING MINIVAN TO STUFF OUR BEAUTIFUL FUCKING BABIES INTO IT AND DRIVE THE FUCK OUT OF IT.

THEN WE CAN GO SOME FUCKING PARENT-TEACHER MEETINGS AND MEET THE FUCK OUT OF OUR KID’S TEACHER. THEN JUDGE THE SHIT OF HER IN THE CAR.

AND WE CAN THEN PILE ALL THE CHILDREN IN THE FUCKING MINIVAN AND GO TO THE STORE AND SHOP FOR GROCERIES SO HARD THAT WE ACTUALLY HAVE TO MAKE MORE THAN TWO TRIPS TO GET ALL THAT SHIT INSIDE THE HOUSE.

AND THEN COOK THE FUCK OUT OF OUR KITCHEN UNTIL WE HAVE NO FOOD LEFT AND WE FEAST ON THAT SHIT FOR FUCKING DAYS.

I WILL EAT THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR HOMEMADE COOKIES.

THEN WASH THE SHIT OUT ON THE DISHES TOGETHER UNTIL OUR ENTIRE HANDS GET FUCKING PRUNEY.

WE’LL WATCH OUR KIDS FUCKING GRADUATE AND MOTHER FUCKING TEAR UP LIKE THE BADASS BOSSES WE FUCKING ARE.

WE WILL GROW SO DAMN OLD TOGETHER, WE WILL LOOK LIKE FUCKING RAISINS.

I WILL FUCKING TELL YOU EVERY SINGLE SECOND HOW MUCH I FUCKING LOVE YOU.

HOLDING EACH OTHER’S FUCKING HANDS SO HARD THAT WE SHIT OUR SELVES.

UNTIL WE DIE AND ROT AS MOTHERFUCKING CORPSES TOGETHER.

TIL DEATH DO US FUCKIN PART.

HAPPILY EVER FUCKING AFTER.

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THIS ENTRY

I always ask myself that question. And I'm too lazy to think of an answer. If only I can clone myself a hundred times so that I would sleep all day while they finish my studies and ambitions. This world is cruel. People didn't realize they have wasted half of their lives reading books, writing and passing useless examinations. Imagine the world without schools, governments, or even money. Just law. How cool would that be! We only have approximately 80 years to live and they (the greater ones) stole away 40 years of cramming and mental procrastination. Ugh, so many words I like to express but too lazy to utter them. And because I'm lazy, this entry stops here. *heavy yawn*. Good night pretty creatures.  

PS. that sketch is not drawn by me. Found it on tumblr. LOL!

TASTE OF DEATH

I saw this post on tumblr and thought how stupid this is. Sleep paralysis is not something everyone should experience. They said that you'll have the ability to control your dreams. It's a big lie. You see, I am suffering from sleep paralysis for more than a decade now and believe me, it's not cool. You're only mentally awake which means you lose control of your body. Not just that, you're also going to hear unusual voices and somehow that voices will strangle you thus lessen your air intake.And now promoting the idea of having one and teaching people how to do it, it's plain stupid! It might not be deadly but trust me, it is a taste of death. I just hope that to whoever posted it, will gain some knowledge and delete that post. 

So for reading this, please don't try it. 

THIRD!!

I just can't afford to lose my blogspot account but since I already did, I decided to make another one. Actually, this is just the same as my other account except for some details. I copied my older posts (not all by the way) and paste them here. The dates are not the same.  I can't navigate the exact dates. Ugh. Wordpress is not my type of blog at all. Not that I'm criticizing the blog, it's just that I am not used to their mechanics and all. I find their dashboard so complicated and I can't/don't know how to find any companions. :(


Sooooo, this is my third blogspot account already. heehee. I forgot the password on my first one. Well same as my second but I got a strong feeling that it got hacked.


Now I pretty much learned my lesson. I saved my username and password to my phone. I've been so complacent. I'm gonna make sure it won't happen again. NOT AGAIN!  3:D

Truth

It’s been a while since I’ve updated something about myself. Things are tougher for me now. No one noticed it (because I don’t want someone to notice it either). They all thought that I’m now steadily happy with my life but truth is, no. It’s been a living hell. Not socially though. I’m done with that ages ago.

We (family) are planning to move away. I mean, not really to another country cause that would be awesome. Just moving somewhere away here in our current home. My family has been in a lot of problems lately. Papa is wanted for child assault. No, it’s not like what you think. My brother was bullied and had a big bruise on his eyes. It happened twice and papa, couldn’t take it anymore, took the revenge for my bother. The teachers all filed a complain and summoned him. The guards of the school even stand as witnesses. Lucky for us that someone helped us through this. But it’s still not safe to show our complacency though. I know papa regretted it, he told me himself, CRYING. Yes, I saw him cry. And believe me it’s not easy seeing your own father hurting. And it’s not over yet. My brother was transferred to another school and papa is not here with us for the mean time. I’m not religious but I just hope that God has better plans for us for giving us this ungrateful  trial.

And that’s about it, for now. Yes, things are really not like what people see. I didn’t got the courage to say this to anyone right now because I feel like I cannot lean on them. Now that I’ve fucked up. I know that. Really sucks for me. 

THIS

My own version of MANIFESTO :

This is my 45th post.

This post is unique and awesome.

Random yet intriguing.

Really intriguing.

I said it because I mean it and no one will judge this post or I will kill you with my bare hands.

Kill.

Torture.

Bury.

All you gotta do is read.

Understand the value of information being formulated.

Understand the information.

Understand the value being formulated.

And by grasping every letter, every word and every punctuation, you will then realize that you have spent half of your life in a trance (of god knows what) compelled by this blog and you will thank me for that.

Star.


*PS I have no intention to be mean on this post. Random post is random. You too should try it. Make a manifesto post!!
Edited by Eunice Delfin. Thanks. :D

RANDOM

That feeling when you just want to punch someone so hard on the face, but realized you can't do it because somehow you feel like your going to end up like "the jerk". Truth is, I keep my disappointment to myself. And a lot of people (i mean few people) think that I'm a big hard-ass bi-polar. Getting mad for no reason? That is some serious mental problem. Yes, I know that it is much better to honestly say what I really feel, and then what? End up with a really bad day with both guilty and non-guilty conscience. Enmity isn't really what I wanted to felt like but somehow it left me with no choice but to keep my mouth silent. And the saddest part is that,I'm the only one who can buckle my own difficulty for reasons I cannot utter. I can't bear handling any consequences that may end up destroying myself and killing someone. 


How I deal with this?... I~